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How I Knew Something Was Wrong – My Symptoms

I try to think back to when I first knew something was wrong, and I needed help. The problem with bipolar is many of the symptoms can be similar to other characteristics. For example, you might start to wonder if the symptoms are related to smoking pot, lack of sleep, a bad day or week, or something else. Before I went and talked to my doctor about my symptoms, I must have been feeling them for 2-3 years prior.

Here are some common symptoms of bipolar:

  • Sleep changes
  • Mood changes
  • Social anxiety
  • Feeling sad
  • Talking fast
  • Concentration problems
  • Hopelessness
  • Poor focus
  • And many others

To the naked eye, or to someone who knows nothing about bipolar, these symptoms can translate to almost anything…right? I know friends who have trouble sleeping, or are upset some days. I have a sister who talks way too fast, and others who are shy within a social gathering. Is it safe to say they are all living with bipolar?

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My Experience with the Bipolar Drug, Seroquel

Anyone diagnosed with bipolar disorder knows the beginning is the toughest part. You’re in a very awkward situation because you’ve recently decided to get help for the way you’ve been feeling. You’ve booked an appointment with a doctor you don’t know, and have to express your feelings to them. This session can get pretty deep as they go through a series of questions, asking about your mood, personal life, family, and friends. I remember my appointment was very hard on me because I’m NOT the type of guy who really likes to express, especially when I’m showing weakness. However, that’s not all…

In the end, you’re given a prescription for medication that should help, but you know once you start taking them, you’ll be on them for an infinite amount of time. It’s tough, and I know many of you feel the same way.

Anyway, after the 3rd or 4th attempt, I was put on a medication called Seroquel. What exactly is Seroquel (Quetiapine)? Here’s a quick definition from Wikipedia:

“Quetiapine, marketed as Seroquel, is an atypical antipsychotic approved for the treatment of schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, and along with an antidepressant to treat major depressive disorder. It is also sometimes used as a sleep aid because of its sedating effect but this use is not recommended”

I’ll say this as blunt as possible, taking Seroquel was one of the WORST experience I’ve ever had. At the same time, this is my experience, and I’m sure it’s worked wonders for some of you, but mine was a complete nightmare.

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Relationship Troubles Today – What Can I Do?

The thing with bipolar is the smallest things can throw you off, and if you don’t have a pre-determined strategy to deal with them, you’ll be emotionally drained. I’m usually very good at dealing with emotional stress, but today, something completely caught me off guard. Relationships can be tough because there’s such an emotional connection between two people. I rely on my girl to help me out in ways that my male friends would never understand. I guess it’s because the connection with your girlfriend is completely different than others. This is EXACTLY why when something throws you off, it completely starts hitting emotional places that NO one else can come close to.

Unlike in the early stages of a relationship, when things were still pre-mature, it was a great time to test each other out…right? It’s what happens in the early stages that ultimately builds or destroys your relationship.

My early stages were amazing, and this is why I started becoming too emotionally depended on my girl, even though I knew it’s a mistake because one thing can ruin my day, week, or even month. I guess it’s my bipolar nature to be completely extreme or as they say, bi-polar: “having or relating to two poles or extremities.”

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Why I Named My Blog – BipolarDigest

The word “digest”, in reference to information, means:

“summary of material or information. Or,

“information or a piece of writing that has been made shorter”

If you’re like me, then you’ve visited a lot of bipolar communities for support. I’ve spent a lot of time at large funded website and forums, but lately, I have been spending more time on personal blogs. Reading personal stories allows me to tap into a more personal relationship because you get to understand what challenges an individual person faces when diagnosed with bipolar disorder. So,

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Hope – A Four Letter Word Meaning Transformation

Here’s a definition of the word “Hope”,

a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen.”

Ever since I was first diagnosed, I’ve always hoped to accomplish my goals in life. I’ve always had big plans in life because I wanted to be someone special, and someone who made a huge difference in this world. In the end, I wanted my legacy to be of someone who has helped people during their tough times.

What better way than to help those who have been diagnosed with Bipolar…right?

“Bipolar Disorder” is something I can relate to because I’ve been living with it since 2000, and have learned a lot along the way. I know making certain changes in the way you live life is very important because in all honesty, those who suffer from bipolar have a sensitive mind. However, it’s important to note your mind is beautiful, and today’s reality might NOT be tomorrow. What do I mean?

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Learning from Steve Jobs Quote

For those of you NOT aware of Steve Jobs, he co-founded Apple, which is the creators of iPhone, iMac, iPad, and iCloud. He died at the age of 56 from pancreatic cancer.

In November 2015, I subscribed to Audible offered by Amazon. They were offering an incredible first time bonus, which is $14.95 per month, and gave you 1 credit per month. This credit can be used for any book within the Audible collection. It’s important to mention for new sign-ups, they gave you two credits for the first month. Anyway, I end up getting two books the very next day – The Power of Habits and The Steve Jobs Biography written by Walter Isaacson. I never heard of Walter Isaacson before, and the reason I purchased this book was to learn about Steve Jobs. I’m a techy, and believe he created some of the MOST revolutionary products in the market today. The complete audio book is around 25 hours long, and I would listen to it for 30-45 minutes right before going to bed.

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Yesterday Was Much Better…Flipping the Downward Spiral

On January 5th, 2016, I wrote a blog post about my downward spiral, and how I woke up feeling hopeless. I also mentioned a few reasons I thought I was feeling the way I did. Anyway, today is January 6th, 2016 and I’m happy to say that I’m feeling much better. I accomplished a lot, and feel great about the momentum I have about different aspects of my life. Here’s what I did today, and want to give you guys a little inspiration afterwards.

I woke up around 11AM and pushed myself to get out of bed, and started working right away. I slept around 7 hours, which is perfect because the night before, I felt as though I had overslept, which left me even more tired than before. If you have been reading on the sleep-wake cycle, then you’ll know how important a consistent pattern is for those who live with bipolar.

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